For decades that question has plagued me. No career option really called out to me. I might find different aspects of my job to be interesting, but that isn’t who or what I want to be. I think that I have finally figured out what my life goal is: to be a family man.
Family has always been important to me. I may not necessarily stay all that close to my father or brother they are still important to me. Now that I have children of my own I have been looking back at my life, contemplating different things, thoughts and feelings that I have had over the years. From a very early age I wanted to be a family man, though it wasn’t until recently that I could have put that desire into these terms. I knew that I wanted children. I knew that I wanted to find my life partner. I knew that I wanted these things more than anything else.
So how does this mesh with having a career? Now that is a far more difficult question to answer. I am currently back in school again, working on a degree in the hopes that I can leverage it to help me get into a better paying job. The reason for this is to better provide for my family. Even so, after all this time, I still don’t know what I want that job to be. I only know that I want it to be a job that will allow me to put in my 40 hours a week, feel satisfied with what I do, and come home to my family. I don’t want a job that takes 60+ hours of my week to accomplish, where I come home after the kids are already in bed, and I leave before they ever get up. I don’t want a job that leaves me so drawn and tired that I can’t spend time with my children and enjoy seeing my children grow up.
From this point forward, the primary focus of my life is going to be in providing them with a good father, and with being a good husband for my wife. I want to be that strong man of character that my children can use as a role model. I want to be the yardstick that my daughter uses to measure her future boyfriends and partners against. I want to be somebody my family can be proud of when talking to their friends. I want to be that knight in shining armor.
I am not fooling myself, I know that this is not going to be easy to accomplish. Fortunately I have a partner who will remind me of my goals, and will nudge me back into line if I stray to far from what I have stated my desires to be.
I find myself chaffing a bit at something that I chose to do to save myself time. I chose to use a canned adventure to start things off with our Blue Rose gaming group. The idea was to use a pre-generated adventure to give everyone exposure to the system, and to help them learn how to work with this new set of rules. That idea worked just fine, and it is doing a great job of doing just that.
Another part of this idea was that it would save me time in pre-game prep time as I would just be able to pull out the adventure and run with it. Nice idea, but I am finding that the opposite is true. I find that I am spending more time with the adventure, making sure I know what is happening when and where in the overall story of the adventure than I ever did when I was running my own adventures. The canned adventure depends upon certain things happening at certain points in the course of the adventure, and while it is flexible things are really predetermined, and deviation by too great of a degree will break the overall story. (more…)
This morning I woke up with the distinct impression that I had just visited Jotun’s Bane Kindred. I dimly recall a dream in which I had traveled to the mid-west of our country to meet up with this group. I remember seeing some faces familiar only from photos, and the feeling of complete welcome. There was a lot of jocularity as people filtered in, and some actually recognized me though I hadn’t introduced myself. I have this strange memory of an exchange where a young lady wanted to know what was different in my part of the country, and if we did things the same way there. She was asking me a raft of questions along this line when an older woman led her away, telling her to let the visitor catch his breath. Things faded out from there and then my alarm clock started bleating for attention.
One thing that really stood out from this dream, aside from what I have already described, was the depth of warmth and welcome I felt. This was the warmth you only feel from a group of people who know you, who have been with you through some of the fires and tribulations that we all endure, and seen me through to the other side with a sense of victory. I am normally fairly articulate, but I find myself at a loss to truly describe the depth of feeling that I felt at that moment in my dream. (more…)
Today I took a quiz…and look what I learned!
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Which Norse God Are You?
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You scored as OdinYou are Odin. You are the leader of the Norse Gods. You are the wisest and always fight evil. You sacrificed your eye for knowledge, as well as hanging for 9 days with a spear in your side. You are the God of Philosophy and Poetry. You will lead the Gods into Ragnorak (the end of the world)
| Odin |
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75% |
| Freyja |
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70% |
| Tyr |
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58% |
| Thor |
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53% |
| Baldr |
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43% |
| Loki |
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30% |
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